Bill took this picture after a day of sailing in New Zealand and I got it as I was dropping off to sleep last night. He said, "You would have LOVED this!" and he's right I would have. Boats = SO FUN! The ocean = beauty beyond explanation! He loved it, too. Yay!
I went to bed early last night because my back hurt so I woke up VERY early to pink sky. I had to go outside and capture this quiet and beautiful backdrop. I find myself wanting everything simple, nature, my quiet house . . . in big doses. I wonder why. I have a huge feeling of appreciation of beauty right now and I don't want it clouded with the hustle and bustle. I'm so glad that the Lord is SO gracious. I do not really know how to order my life and choose things. I just want to be. A friend and I met for coffee today and we talked a little about how tempting it is to go "crazy judgmental" when observing different ways people do things and how people end up living out their values. I found myself getting kind of mad and bitter and I'm not so sure it was righteous anger. It may have been a little ugly disgust instead of compassionate concern about souls. I'm sorry. I'm trying to figure out how to move into deep intimacy with other souls and not just enjoy shallow associations, in my neighborhood, my work place, my community. What do you think? Have you ever heard talk of the desert fathers and mothers and their compulsion to "flee the shipwreck"? Our world holds extreme confusion and sadness and all the input and cultural exposure drags me down. What lasts? What matters? Jesus is enough. Yes, it's Jesus + NOTHING.